Notes from the other side of the storm
Honest writing about what bipolar disorder actually feels like from the inside — mania, depression, psychosis, hospitalization, and everything that comes after. No clinical distance, no tidy endings.
Will You Be on Medication Forever? Yes, and That's Okay
On being asked if I'll take bipolar medication forever, and why my answer is a steady, happy yes.
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Why I Now Double-Check Every Medication Dose Myself
A bipolar medication dosing error landed me in the hospital. Here's why I verify every prescription against the manufacturer's data now.
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When Grief Turns Into Mania, Not Depression
Grief doesn't always look like collapse. Here's how losing my mother sent me into mania instead of depression — and what I wish I'd known.
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When Getting Out of Bed Feels Impossible: Start With One Task
Some mornings just getting up is the hardest part. Here's why one small task can be enough to move the day forward.
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Do You Remember Your Psychosis Afterwards?
People assume psychosis is a blackout you wake up from. Mostly I remember mine, in vivid detail — but not all of it, and the gaps aren't where you'd expect.
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Will I Ever Be Normal Again After a Bipolar Diagnosis?
The question people ask right after diagnosis, and rarely get a straight answer to. Here's mine — including what "normal" turned out to actually mean.
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Bipolar Disorder Is Not a Mood: What the Word Actually Means
"The weather is so bipolar today." Here's why that phrase lands differently when you have the diagnosis — and what bipolar disorder actually is.
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The Mask I Wore in Middle School: Early Signs of Bipolar Disorder
Bipolar disorder is usually diagnosed around age 25, but it often starts speaking much earlier. An excerpt from Daybreak about the first signs, at thirteen, and the mask that hid them.
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What to Actually Pack for a Psychiatric Hospital Stay
Nobody hands you a packing list before a psychiatric admission. Here's what to bring, what they'll take at the door, and the small things that make the days easier.
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What a Psychotic Break Actually Feels Like From the Inside
Psychosis is described clinically far more often than it's described honestly. This is an excerpt from Daybreak about what a psychotic break actually felt like from inside it.
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